At least the question seemed interesting to me. Right after I finished last night’s post, NW and I readied for bed and climbed in. I was as physically exhausted as I have been in a long while. Per plan, however, we fooled around just a bit. No intercourse, just fingers stimulating her nether regions. It seemed to be taking NW longer than normal to buildup pleasure and she wasn’t anywhere near reaching orgasm. Then, “duh”, it hit me. There was nothing intense about what I was doing. No pain, no tweak, no significant pressure and speed to my movements. So, I had her switch around and get in the 69 position.
I told her not to pleasure me just yet. I wanted to focus on her. Several licks, sucks and light bites to her clit and labia and she was going over the edge. I continued to make her orgasm until I felt sure that she had crossed the line and the edge had been taken off of her. She then teased me up and edged me six or seven times. As I expected, this relaxed me even more. I had a really good night’s sleep.
The interesting question popped out during her teasing me. It was in response to something I had said, off the cuff, and something I had said in response to a statement by her. She had said that she wanted to give me a ruined orgasm, at some point. We have had accidental ruined orgasms in the past (see posts from last year), but she wants to intentionally give me one. I said that, if all things are aligned, we could try my Lent idea. It would be forty-eight days without a real orgasm…only ruined, on the weekends.
For my statement, I mentioned to her that I didn’t know what her plan was (even though I am not sure there is one) concerning me being denied. But, if she was aiming for a month, which arrives on January 22nd, and assuming that everything is still going well, there really isn’t any reason not to push it through the end of the month. That would make 40 days (a very daunting, scary thought). But, it would mean that the denial had not only gone for a numerical month, but a calendar month as well. And it would still give us three weeks of downtime between this run and the beginning of Lent.
Then she asked it. I am paraphrasing here, as I was too exhausted to remember the exact words. She asked me, after acknowledging the possibility of pursuing the full January denial and the Lent denial, “What if things are still going well at the end of January? Do you want a break?”. My cock leapt. I got that twinge of arousal and excitement in my stomach. I feared. She was suggesting, and therefore entertaining the idea, that I remain in denial, at least, through April 8th. That could potentially mean being denied for one hundred and eight days, at least…with ruined orgasms, on the weekends, during the last forty-eight. Three and a half months of denial, from full orgasm, when I have never made it even a full month (twenty-eight days, twice).
Sitting here typing, the thought of that is heady, exciting, arousing and yet so very, very terrifying. If it is more than I can take, I can end it. But as is my nature, I want to stick with the plan. Is this the plan? If so, it becomes a challenge. I do not yield easily to challenges. Not to mention I want to do it for NW, if that is what she wants.
Of course, she may have just been teasing me. There are a lot of days between here and there. She loves to have proper intercourse, which would likely set me off. She loves to give me pleasure and make me reach orgasm. Hell, I don’t know that I am mentally up to the task. I already want to cum, and we are only on day thirteen. Only ninety-five more to go?? I don’t know.
Rest assured, though, if this is what NW wants, I will give it my all. I love her. I love the control and denial. I just fear that going from a 5k to a marathon might be a bit of a jump. Of course, you never know until you try.
Any of you had the experience of going several months? Does the want subside? Does it become habitual, or normal, and, hence, more manageable?
I think I hope she goes for it.